never late then never

readers,
OK I'm sorry i haven't post in a while i have been on the verge of a mental break down, with my mother completely off her loon. its been stress full but with school out i can focus on my story's and poetry and music. but with my moms memorie going I'm watching over her for now. sometimes i wish i could go back in time and slap my family members and tell them to get there heads out of their asses, with my mother and i trying to get the house ready so we can leave this shit hole, its only getting more stressful. i might be going to a french camp this year, so i can finally get out of this town and see some of the world a head of me. i cant wait in tell i hit eighteen i am out of Washington and i am moving on, to better places.

so yesterday i was reading and these poems came to mind and i want to put them down even though there not good you can still see where i am coming from.
.......................................................................................................................................................................... to my mother,
wipe you're eyes
dry those tears
mommy always here
mommy made that promise
and now she's gone
I want my mommy back
not the shell that's here
I love her
but I want my fucking mommy back.

to my father,
Two hearts very different from the other, make a child so small and frail
The hearts grow apart and the child goes with one.
The child grows only seeing the other heart only once every full moon.
The child sees the heart in many ways, only the heart and child don’t get along
The heart sees the child as his frail and small baby again
Even though she has grown and become strong and intelligent the heart still sees
Her as his baby girl, the heart is strong and unknown to her.
But the girl loves the heart as if she knows everything about him.
So on this day the child would like to say have a happy father’s day
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